She's so.........

what is there to do?

2007-09-20T10:20:00.001-05:00

restarting nursing

2007-05-27T23:30:00.000-05:00

I quit nursing, I suppose you could say two days ago. I have been very slowly doing away with the human nipple for as long as I have been nursing henry. He is a good kid, easy going, just goes with the flow - but I have now no flow...so I haven't nursed. But I want to...for a few reasons...

1) it's pretty convenient. especially at 4am. I bump Ryan, he goes and gets him, brings him to bed. I nurse as I sleep. When I am done, I bump Ryan, and he brings him back.

2) it makes me skinny. No explanation needed.

3)I have heard it's good for them. At this point, though I don't think that's the best reason.

4)It gives me an excuse to go away sometimes, like if were at a party and I just want to duck away, I can use the old excuse of nursing (whether or not I am).

5) i think the prolactin actually relaxes me, I dont know maybe that's just a placebo effect.

so anyway, tonight I decided to take the plunge and dust off the old milk machine. I even sacraficed an old bra and cut little slits in it so I can go hands free (meaning I can get lots of blogging done!)

I don't know how long it will last. If it doesn't last long, at least I have a nice new bra that my nipples can stick out of. Sweet....

for my own refrence

2007-04-09T08:10:00.000-05:00

I wanted to see how many of the 2007 oscar nominations Ive actually seen...

I've seen Cars, and Happy Feet. Oh, and...Children of Men.

Sad.

" height="43" width="53">Leonardo DiCaprio
Blood Diamond

" height="43" width="53">Ryan Gosling
Half Nelson

" height="43" width="53">Peter O'Toole
Venus

" height="43" width="53">Will Smith
The Pursuit Of Happyness

Forest Whitaker
The Last King Of Scotland

Alan Arkin
Little Miss Sunshine

" height="43" width="53">Jackie Earle Haley
Little Children

" height="43" width="53">Djimon Hounsou
Blood Diamond

" height="43" width="53">Eddie Murphy
Dreamgirls

" height="43" width="53">Mark Wahlberg
The Departed

" height="43" width="53">Penélope Cruz
Volver

" height="43" width="53">Judi Dench
Notes On A Scandal

Helen Mirren
The Queen

" height="43" width="53">Meryl Streep
The Devil Wears Prada

" height="43" width="53">Kate Winslet
Little Children

" height="43" width="53">Adriana Barraza
Babel

" height="43" width="53">Cate Blanchett
Notes On A Scandal

" height="43" width="53">Abigail Breslin
Little Miss Sunshine

Jennifer Hudson
Dreamgirls

" height="43" width="53">Rinko Kikuchi
Babel

Pirates Of The Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest

Letters From Iwo Jima

The Queen

United 93

Deliver Us From Evil

An Inconvenient Truth

Iraq In Fragments

Jesus Camp

My Country, My Country

The Blood Of Yingzhou District

Recycled Life

Rehearsing A Dream

If it weren't for you, stupid internet...

2007-03-19T16:39:00.000-05:00

I need to stop blaming all my children on the fact that "I don't have the time." Really the problem is the stupid internet. If it weren't for you, stupid internet, I would have more time.

What happens is, I have a question about something...so I plop down in front of the computer to do some "quick research." In the meantime, my kids are pouring milk down between the crack of the table and finding it to be most amusng how it falls down to the floor...and I miss this event. I hear them laughing, get irritated, question my parenting coping skills, wonder if I'm going through some sort of post-partum psychosis, and go and plop back down on the computer to find out... it's a terrible cycle!

If I hadn't questioned that first thing in the first place (which was this: what is tequila made from? Answer: some plant that looks like a cactus, and it isn't as I suspected made from worms), the meal would have been more clean and I wouldn't have been such a spazzoid.

oh yea, and then I think about how I shoudl blog this revolutionary idea of mine and the cycle starts all over again.

fireplace plannings

2007-01-18T12:32:00.000-06:00

this is my fireplace: bleh, right???

and here are some photos of how I'd like to update our fireplace:

1) Big fancy pretty.

2) Simple wouldn't require much work a-tall.

3) Another big and fancy, but still simple one.

4) nice, and simple

I think it actually WAS starting...

2006-12-28T23:11:00.000-06:00

I delivered Henry (without induction, thank you very much) on Dec 20th. It's been a ride since, let me tell you. Babies are boring. It's not that much more work but it sure feels like it when you have the flu.

it's ... starting.

2006-12-19T10:02:00.000-06:00

but again, this could only be false-labor. so I'm moving about as if it's not happening.
actually I'm afraid to sit b/c then I'd have to get up.

I have the kids today, it's not easy being me.

10:00 pm End of "Due Date Day"

2006-12-18T22:13:00.000-06:00

nothing.

Today is my Due Date.

2006-12-18T12:27:00.000-06:00

the most irritating thing about getting bumped twice is all the preparation i have to do. monday I went through my fridge and gave away to my mom who took the kids all milk, cheese, anything that can go bad, and threw the rest out like lettuce etc. I was left with no food in the house. I packed the kids cothes and made sure to have the wash done and put away twice and all that...I don't know why I care so much but it would be nice to come home to a clean and organized place. Then on thurs they stayed with the inlaws and I had to pack them up again, then sat they did it again. I just have no energy left to do all the prep work and planning.

today in the clinic i was bawling my eyes out about it. they were like, "you just are uncomfortable," but I think I am more upset about the upset that it causes my family. my mom's taken two days off work, my inlaws have gone out of their way to help us...the boys are a LOT of work!!!

So today she stripped my membranes and we got blood so that was good. She is going to call me at two today to see if i can get in on the schedule for tomorrow for an induction and if that isn't going to happen then maybe wednesday and if that doesn't happen them maybe thursday. and then if THAT doesn't work, then I have a post-dates ultrasound on friday. They won't induce me next week b/c of the holiday. So I might just be going to 42 weeks. Wouldn't that suck!?

The stripping seems to be working to make me cramp up and stuff so I'm just hoping but I'm not holding my breath.

My belly is measuring "big" and that was all she would say. Last week it was 41 weeks (meausred by her student) and today it was just "big". And she checked my cervix and didn't say what i was at, so we'll see....god help me.

4:00 pm Sunday

2006-12-17T16:16:00.000-06:00

Nothing.

5am

2006-12-17T05:39:00.000-06:00

so basically I just slept all night, and was uncomfortable and still produced no change.
the gel must have just irritated me and made me feel bad, but not bad "enough".
I don't like 5am. Boring.

But if I'm still contracting a lot, doesn't that just tired me out so my U. can't do its job?

ps I have a very bad sore throat.

update 7:00pm 12/16

2006-12-16T19:10:00.000-06:00

nothing new to report. contractions are 3 mn apart and I can walk/talk through them though they are uncomfortable. The boys are at the rents and we're going to have dinner and watch a movie.

neat

labor and delivery?

2006-12-16T15:26:00.000-06:00

On 12/11 I was given an apointment to start cytoec. They called that day and said they were canceling because they didn't have enough beds, but to come back on Thursday 12/14 and they would do the cytotech.

On 12/14 I was informed that day that they woudl administer gel instead because they couldn't keep me overnight because again, they didn't have enough beds.

I showed up at my apt on 12/14 for the gel and was monitored for a while when they decided that they best not give the gel, because it might cause spazmatic contractions (I was told I was contracting too much and that my cervix was at 3.5 cm, -2 station) and was given instructions to come back the next morning where they would start pitocin.

I called the next morning (12/15) as instructed and was told they had no beds for me, and that the induction would be delayed for a week.

Midwife called later saying they could give me gel on Sat. 16th and to come in at noon. I arrived there, and was told that if I was at 4cm they might break my water and keep me. She checked and I was at 2.5cm. Administered the gel. congractions because heavier and more intense. I was very uncomfortable and assuming it was working. They checked me an hour later, there was no change and I was discharged.

So far, I've been discharged for about 1.5 hours and my contractions haven't let up and I am still very very uncomfortable.

my birthday

2006-12-12T11:11:00.000-06:00

I was supposed to be induced this morning. I would have had him by now possibly. Or else high as a kite, and either way, happy. But the induction was postponed to thursday. The inlaws very kindly took the boys for us anyway (which I am so thankful for) and I had a nice shopping list to take to target. My car battery is dead and I'm captive in my own home.

This will be the time that my water breaks. yep. I still might have this kid today. on my kitchen floor.

Who wants to be a millionaire?

2006-12-07T16:15:00.000-06:00

oh! ME! ME! ME!!

happy birthday to WE

2006-12-04T22:07:00.000-06:00

unless i go into labor between now and next week, this baby will most likely be born on Dec. 12th. that day is so familiar....hmmmm
yea!? It's my birthday too. I'll be 29.

I think making a birthday on your birthday is weird...

While some people who are thirty (I should say 29) are still out partying at clubs and going out to nice resteraunts and trying new dishes and having lots of wonderful wild sex, me, I'm going to indoor swim facilities, where they serve hotdogs at room temperature, not having sex (even though it looks that way doesn't it?) and not traveling anywhere but within a five mile radius of my house. Ever again.

When I'm sixty (only sixty) my children will all most likely be having children of their own or getting married, ....I won't be an old geezer grandma and I won't be rolling in it because while I was in my thirties I was raising three boys not working and saving money like they said I should have.

So now I see that sharing my birthday will always remind me what I was doing that year I turned 29. I think it's going to make me realize how lucky I was but at the same time maybe remind me what I could have been doing otherwise, and that, is sometimes harder to deal with than anything.

But if I look at the bright side, at least I get to share my birthday with my most beloved, we can celebrate like we're 1,2,3,4,....again, AND no one will EVER forget my birthday. Like when Aidan's 18 and just starting college, he won't forget to call me!!

I'm off to spend one of seven nights without a child attached to my breast...I should really try to enjoy it!!

37 weeks.

2006-11-28T14:57:00.000-06:00

I'm 37 weeks now and assuming (from things I've been told by certain medical professionals) that I could maybe go in to be induced soon... Last week my highly-anticipated apt. was cancelled and rescheduled for yesterday. We went in and I have no (absolutely no) signs of going into labor soon...my cervix is not moving and it's far far away.

Today I peed my pants after what I thought was a completed bladder-emptying episode. I stood up to pull up my pants and GUSH. How exciting for me. Until I realized I peed my fricking pants. It wasn't all that inconvenient b/c I hadn't even showered yet so it was a good excuse I guess.

But basically I'm just pissed. And craving chinese food.

Call me if you want to hear about my tragic life. (I know it could be worse and it will be over soon enough and I won't remember next month bla bla bla - don't call me if you're going to say that to me, it doesn't help)

And BTW...his name is NOT Hank and making a joke like that doesn't make me pleased with you.

Signed,
crabby bitch from hell.

I am a poet now...

2006-11-28T14:56:00.000-06:00

my politics

2006-10-20T21:37:00.000-05:00

I've always known myself to be liberal, but I took this quiz and fell very left compared to where I thought I would.

I think I took this one other time and turned out more Libertarian.

I wonder which one question (b/c the quiz is very small) I answered differently.

huh?

2006-10-07T23:05:00.000-05:00

are they called "FREE" WEIGHTS
thems are expensive!

wave!

2006-10-05T21:53:00.000-05:00

Ryan think I'm crazy but whenever I feel I'm being watched, I'll wave in that direction...

For instance, we live in a house with lots of big windows. We also have LOTS of neighbors, so whenver I do something stupid or embarassing, I'll wave...

I really do know that no one reads my blogs...but I just feel like I need to wave to you anyway.

this would look PERFECT in the great room.

2006-10-04T18:25:00.000-05:00

though I wish I could see the back of it....perhaps I'd even turn it and put the litter pan underneath. wouldn't that be cool?

I run on 50% enthanol apparently!

2006-09-25T16:46:00.000-05:00

Last weekend, Ryan and I set out for the city to look at a used swingset off craigslist...
On the drive out, we discussed if we should buy a used one, figure out how to transport it, or just go to evil empire wal-mart and buy one and just assemble it....

On the way there we discovered that gas was cheap, and huh? we needed some. So we stopped. I pulled in, got my credit card to pay at the pump, and started the process of gettin' gas.

Ryan saw a man who was sitting by his van with a sign that read, "I run on 50% ethanol ASK ME HOW!" so Ryan got out and went over to talk to him.

While he was doing that, I got Aidan out of the van and he "helped" me wash the windows. I got Aidan got back in the van, started her up and waited for Ryan to finish his conversation.

We left.

We get to the place to look at the swingset. We left and when I started the van it beeped at me, the low fuel light was on.

I was like WTF?! Ryan asked me, did you even get gas? I thought I had....

We drive BACK to that same gas station where that man was STILL bragging about his ethanol consumption, and I proceeded to get gas.

He musta thought my vehicle was a major gas guzzler!! (it is actually and the 50/50 thing is tempting!)

That was long and borning and I apologize to my audience profusely.

Love the house, hate the stuff...

2006-09-21T13:44:00.000-05:00

I knew I'd start feeling this way sooner later....

So I think I'll start planning for that special moment when we win the lottery or something.

I will need:

Living Room:

A picture for above the fireplace. Or a flat top (as my mom calls it) TV....
Curtains
Area Rug
End table and coffee table

Front Room:

I'm not too sure what to do with this space yet...so here are some ideas:

Computer room with a nice desk and flat top (he he) monitor. Cute old wood roller chair, and hiding spaces for stuff. A nice reading chair and a lamp.
Dining room (as it is intended)
Formal living room

We don't need a formal living space or a dining room b/c the one we have is ample. So I think we should go with a computer/sitting room. Smart people have reading chairs, right?

techno-confusion.

2006-09-13T21:54:00.000-05:00

I am confused.

What's with TVs on Fridgerators? God that's wierd.
Though I'd like one.
I'd like one on the bathroom wall, but this isn't a new idea. Sorta like in the 80s when they put telephones in the bathroom. Glad that went away. I hate it when I'm talking to people and all the sudden I hear the sound of the toilet flushing, Kathy.

Back to TVs, though I would like one IN the toilet, so that as I flush I don't miss even a minute of Project Runway.

baby stuff on the brain

2006-08-14T15:31:00.000-05:00

apparently, I'm nesting.
Here's my list of things that I know full-well I could live without. But I want... they are a little extravagent and if I go without them, I'll survive! I am just shopping on line and thought I'd share with my "readers."

a different changing table. I saw one once at IKEA that was a fold up one that you put over the toilet. GENIUS idea. I was thinking of getting one for the laundry room. Or the bathroom downstairs. Do they make wooden fold-down changing tables? It could look like a cabinet or have a mirror on the back so it looked like it was supposed to be there. I'm thinking now!

Since I originally typed this one, I actually found a decent changing table for $25 at a garage sale, but I still want to make one of these fold down ones. The ones at IKEA are metal and tarp and are 70 bucks... still working on this idea.

this changing table is nice, though I think it might take up too much space. And I dont' think I'll be running up and down the stairs to change a diaper.
New bottles. I have a million types and they've all been used by two or more kids! This little one deserves a new bottle don't you think? (I used these with Nate and we liked them a lot, but they got to leaking by the end)

Since I originally typed this, I found the brand of bottles I want from a garage sale for .50/botttle. I'm going to boil them and buy new nipples...what a cheap solution. However, they're used...not new. Sniff. They're the Avent kind, so good resale if I change my mind.

Baby swing. Preferably a papasan type since I've heard good things.

update: found the one I want on craigslist for $70. Ryan is even picking it up. What a man.

Bjorn or some type of sling. I wish I hadn't sold my hug-a-bub!

Found a snuggli at a garage sale for $5.

estoy sra. crabby pantalones

2006-07-10T21:53:00.000-05:00

so I'm crabby. wanna know why?

I had a band concert today and was late. When hitching a ride with me, please be ready to go when I say to be. I hate being late. It stresses me out and it's embarassing especially when I am not in tune the whole time because miss crazy lady next to me keeps hogging the tuner and I haven't had time to warm up. THEN...I get out to my car after walking uphill and my car won't start b/c i'm parked on a hill and the damn steering wheel is locked and i can't get it unlocked. I went back DOWN the hill and ask, "Does anyone know how to start a car?" So the nice tuba player walks back UP the hill with me and he gets it to start...thank God that it was hard I would have been even more embarassed.

When you are in a group and leaving in separate cars, please make sure your pregnant friend's car starts before you speed away. Please....thank God for tuba players.

I hate Sears. THEY have an appoinment with ME tomorrow to come fix our oven. What time is the appointment? "Sometime between 8am and 5pm." LIke I have NOTHING else to do tomorrow but wait for the hot stinky sweaty nasty man to come and lay on my kitchen floor. EWE. You better just replace the oven for us.

Know what else I hate? That I have to put the garbages out every week or it won't get done.

Know what else? The grass won't stay green if you keep turning off the hose on me Aidan. You stinker. Little treehugger. You don't even like granola.

is it a boy or a girl? take 1

2006-07-05T20:42:00.000-05:00

according to: http://www.childbirth.org/cgi-bin/boyorgirl.pl

Congratulations!

You have a 43% chance of having a boy. And you have a 56% chance of having a girl.

And Here's Why...You are carrying the extra weight out front, so it's a boy.
The hair on your legs is not growing any faster during your preganacy, so it's a girl.
Girls are carried high. You are going to have a girl.
Sleeping in a bed with your pillow to the north indicates that you will be having a boy.
Your feet are not colder than they were before pregnancy. You are having a girl.
You refuse to eat the heel of a loaf of bread. You are having a girl.
Dad-to-be is gaining weight right along with Mom-to-be, which means that you'll have a boy.
The maternal grandmother has gray hair, so a boy will be born.
You didn't have morning sickness early in pregnancy, so it will be a boy.
You are looking particularly good during pregnancy. Therefore, it must be a boy, because girls steal their mother's looks.
Your chest development has not been very dramatic during pregnancy. You should expect a boy.
Since the sum of the mother's age at conception and the number of the month of conception is an odd number, it will be a girl.
A needle on a thread held over your belly moves in circles, so you will have a boy.
Your urine is a dull yellow color, so you will have a girl.
You are craving sweets, which means that it is a girl.
Your nose hasn't changed during pregnancy, which indicates a girl.
You have been craving fruits, so it is a girl.
Your baby's heart rate is 140 or more beats per minute, so it's a girl.
You must have orange juice every day, so it's a girl.
You are having headaches, so it's a boy.Your belly looks like a watermelon, so it's a girl.
You show them the palm of your hand, so it's a girl.
You use the handle, so it's a boy.

Copyright © 1997, 1998 by Childbirth.org All rights reserved.

I'm a big whiner....it's a downer.

2006-05-04T12:56:00.000-05:00

1) I will NOT be the last one on the block to mow the lawn. But I will NOT be the first on in this house to mow the lawn.

2) I am being stubborn with the laundry. We both conveniently "forget" about it every night and the first one to have to deal with it is the first one who dicides to crawl into bed: me. I am totally exausted every night when i decide that and i can't even move my arms to hang up a shirt much less deal with two weeks worth of clothes. I will not do it myself.

3)Dishes are also convenienly forgotten about. After dinner "there are other things to be done," and they just get left for "tomorrow". If I wasn't pregnant, I would be a mom on speed trying to get everyting done. I swear it.

4) The toys outside drag me down. There are too many. Someone come steal them.

5) I changed the litter the other day. I am not supposed to change the litter. Do you think the person who us supposed to change it noticed??? Nope.

6) I wish preschool didn't end in two days. I also wish that it lasted about two more hours than it does. Preschool happens around Nathan's naptime, and I have to go in and wake him up because it's time to go pick up Aidan from preschool. Then Nathan's crabby the remainder of the day.

7) someone please give me a pill that will end the crap-food cravings! Also slip me a pill that gives me the energy to get up and make myself something decent and wholesome to eat. My poor three children are suffering.

warning to potental clever kingdom! consultants

2006-05-02T12:55:00.000-05:00

before you send any money to this company clever kingdom! do your research! If you would like to know more about this please contact me.

Thank you for being a good citizen by checking into companies you potentially might do business with.

-citizens for WAHM scams.

inside jokes. they're fun.

2006-04-25T16:15:00.000-05:00

1) vaccuming with your mouth open
2) the crazy lady at band
3) turqoise bellbottoms
4) potato soup for the soul
5) cheese graters and pizza dough
6) popsicle stick houses
7) there she is again.

I know there are more. can you help?

It's freaking 3:21

2006-04-14T03:22:00.000-05:00

Oh my hell. This is the third night in a row I have woken with too much to do that sleeping seems like a waste of time. I will write it all down in attempts to ease my mind until morning when I can wake up and get er done!!

1) Make homemade bubbles and bubble things for the triplets birthdays sunday. Make some for self, emma and claire too.

2) Move this computer up to Aidan's room. Sick of coming downstirs every ten minutes to help him. Perhaps consider getting rid of computer all together...nah.

3) Get rid of Piano

4) Get rid of big chair in living room.

5) Laundry

6) Pack away winter things

7) Pack away things that don't fit. (sell/give away or put in the box to pray on)

8) Clean cupboards and bring stuff for foodshelf donations.

9) Paint Deck

10) Paint Living room, dining room, kitchen, bathroom, basement, laundry room

11) Make Jewelry!

12) Go to bed.

13) Take vitimin

14) Eat some real food and leave the easter candy for sunday.

15) goodnight.

2006-03-20T16:17:00.001-06:00

I would like the ability to make some of my posts private. Like when i want to discuss with myself some deals that are private. Like about my period and my poop. You don't want to know about that.

That was only an example, by the way. What I want to write about isn't that interesting.

Any suggestions?

2006-03-20T16:17:00.000-06:00

test

don't you hate it when..

2006-03-15T21:37:00.000-06:00

you are eating in bed and you drop something and have to go digging to find it?

possible solution: don't eat in bed. especially chips.

bored

2006-03-15T15:53:00.000-06:00

but so many things I COULD be doing.

the internet is boring
the TV is boring

I could be paying bills
or sleeping (!!)
or shopping online - I need a new spring jacket
or laundry
or cleaning toddler pee off the toilet (this seems to be a full-time job for me these days)

gosh now you're bored.
sorry.

What do YOU do that's weird?

2006-03-13T22:43:00.000-06:00

Yesterday I decided to take a bath before dinner. That's weird in and of itself, but after the bath, I was not about to put my clothes back on. But it was too early for pajamas. So I compromized. I put my jammies on, and to keep toasty warm, I put my bra on OVER my jammies and then a hoodie on over that. I was cozy. And when time to slip in between the sheets, off went my hoodie and my bra (that was atop my shirt which is easier than sneaking it off from under).

I used to do some other weird things too to save time, things that I've grown out of.

In highschool, I would decide what I wanted to wear to school the next day the night before. Sometimes I would try them on just to make sure it looked right. Then I would just crawl into bed and go to sleep wearing them. Saved me time in the morning. Didn't even have to get dressed.

In college, I had to take the bus to and fro. Once I had an exam in the early AM and another in the late afternoon. Since I had no concept of money and nowhere to go (the library might have been a better choice), I just rented a hotel room and studied and crashed. Too posh for the lounge. No wonder I am still paying off college loans...and what have I to show for it?

Time, it's on my side. Yes it is.

It's been a while!

2006-03-09T11:14:00.000-06:00

I looked over my blog posts and realized I've not written about me much lately. So since I am sure you're dying to know, here's the scoop.

1) I just got off the phone with a lady who designs jewelry and am going to have my try at duplicating them for her. I will get paid based on the difficulty and time that goes into the piece. Thanks to a friend who didn't enjoy it she is passing it off to me. I am so excited about it, and think that this is a perfect opportunity for me.

2) Aidan is outside playing! This is GREAT news.

3) Nathan vomited twice this morning. Gross. Now he's sleeping.

4) Aidan has preschool in an hour, AND, he has his first class pictures today. I am afriad I didn't get nice enough clothes for the ordeal because I overheard one mother say she has stressed herself out over this for two weeks now and can't find the perfect getup. Please. Aidan is wearing a striped polo and navy blue pants. And since his feet won't show, he's wearing tennies!

5) I quit clever kingdom finally.

6) I am going to go back to school in the fall. Rassmussen business college. I want to be a massage therapist.

7) yes. beef jerky. mmmmmm

happy valentines day to me!

2006-02-15T20:14:00.000-06:00

what a sweetheart. my husband got me what I always wanted: a membership to MPR the Current. So stoked. I can't wait for my mug to get here. I am going to look so cool.

Hi, I am going to be a massage therapist.

2006-02-14T21:04:00.000-06:00

So I went and talked to a counselor at a college today....one day, one night, saturday's alright....

this might not be the place I choose to go to school, but I am going to start the workup process for becoming a massage therapist. So excited.

guinea pigs, guinea pigs, where are you????

heebie jeebies

2006-02-03T14:55:00.000-06:00

today I met my lady friends at the mall for a "play date." the kids run around and play on gigantic pieces of bacon, eggs, cereal, bananas, etc...while we women gab. the perimeter of the breakfast area is benches.

well today there was a man behind us. a creepy old man. i tried to ignore the fact that he was there. he would sorta laugh every once in a while, and pretty soon he was gone.

after he left, this woman who had been sitting on her cellphone came over and said that she had called the police on him because he was paying quite a lot of attention particularly to me...wearing a v-neck shirt. apparently, he had a cup below his jacket and he pulled the cup out and walked away. she had been on the phone with the cop's giving a good discription of him but i still felt very icky leaving the mall today by myself. I ended up walking into various stores in case he was behind me just to lose him. eew.

I was worried he was beating off to the sight of children, but whoever he was looking at (and apparently it was me) there are sure some creeps in this world. Eew.

update:
my lady friend called me later tonight and told me that they caught and arrested the man. he came back (bad choice of words) to the play area and so the girl called the police again. they ended up finding him and cuffing him.

I don't think he was looking at me, I think he was looking at little boys. you hear things about weirdos but you don't ever think you'll come across them. I need to be more cautious. pretty sad I think.

hmmm

2006-01-25T09:59:00.000-06:00

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Rebuttle for maggie:
number of civilian casualties on Sept 11th: 2,986
Civilians reported killed by military intervention in Iraq: 28198

but what do I know? I'm just a stupid liberal...who knows just about the same amount as anyone I guess.

boogers

2006-01-21T15:14:00.000-06:00

I discovered an amazing use for that pesky dried on caked on mucus that runs from my chilren's noses like the nile.

Some was stuck in nathan's eyebrows. I was giving him a bottle and it was BUGGING me (perhaps where the term BOOGER comes from?)...I riped them off like they do to me when I go to the salon for some eyebrow shaping. He flinched slightly, but not too much and after peering at the booger now stuck in my hand, I found millions of little nathan brows. Instantly, my money-saving, entrepeneurial brain kicked into overdrive as it always does whilst tending to the bottle. What if I could package them? I would make MILLIONS! We could tout about how natural and organic they are. Millions of great uses.

So after discovering one great use of boogers I also discovered more!
Check out the following links. I am sure it will either interest you or disgust you. Either way, you will be a changed person after reading this crap.

so I am not sure I'm going to publish this, but I guess I might. If I do, that's why you're reading it.

tagged (thanks morgie!)

2006-01-20T09:46:00.000-06:00

Four jobs you have had in your life:
-target cashier
-bingo ticket sales
-shoe salesperson
-?? can't describe my last job in one sentence.

Four movies you could watch over and over:
-none. I rarely watch movies all the way through, much less over and over.

Four places you have lived:
-buffalo mn
-mankao mn
-minneapolis
-brooklyn park, mn

sad!

Four TV shows you love to watch:
-beauty and the geek
-office
-desperate housewives
-grays anatomy

Four places you've been on vacation:
-up north
-aruba
-cuzumel
-florida

Four websites you visit daily:
-yahoo
-google
-ebay
-my own!

vote here!

2006-01-18T18:14:00.000-06:00

happy new year

2006-01-05T14:33:00.000-06:00

I suppose it's time to plot out my new year's resolution(s). As I have yet to put much thought into it, I guess I am going to be writing exactly as it comes from my mouth.

MORE
1) take medication(s) like vitamins and otherwise religiously.
2) eat better
3) do the YMCA more.
4) go to bed earlier
5) keep the house cleaner
6) don't do anything that might be regretted in the future.
6) listen to more music
7) read more books
8) scrapbook more (it's quanity not quality this year)
LESS
1) eat less crap
2) spend less time on the computer
3) spend less time on the computer
4) keep in better touch with my friends
5) less chaos in my life.
6)less TV
7) spend less money

well see....

velcro baby bjorn idea thing

2005-12-31T21:15:00.000-06:00

ryan and I had a clever idea for a baby carrier. It stems from our nickname we gave nathan. Velcro Baby. So we came up with this idea to make a vest for mom or dad and a vest for baby and we can just like toss the baby onto the velcro and the baby sticks. We decided to add a strap for good measure but if the baby is small enough I doubt it would be necessary.

mind on the money and money on the mind...

2005-11-01T20:41:00.000-06:00

I can't stop thinking about ways to earn some cash. I think I am the next donald trump, and though I have come up with great ideas, I am sure to come up with better ones soon.
Anyway, so now that I'm sure that I am going to strike it insanely wealthy, might as well make plans of what i am going to do with my riches. Here's a list. I challenge you all to come up with your own, because if I'm to be rich, my friends all must be too...
1) Mother's helper. She must possess the skills to read my mind. She must know french (ALBA!)and she also must be willing to rub my shoulders.
2) Freecycle picker-upper. I just don't have the time or energy to drive to pick up the stuff...
3) Target bag cary-er...but I somehow can manage to get to target.
4) I do want an I-pod and one of those clock radio looking thingies to put it in...but I don't have to be donald to have one I don't think. Maybe I'll add it to my froogle wishlist or something eh?
5) A husband who is as intersted in my wants as I am. (sniff)
6) And for him all the TNT and big pumpkins he wants.
7) a dinette set that doesnt get sticky.

and, that's all I can come up with in my pretty little head of mine.

Good night.
:)

another story...

2005-10-12T16:37:00.000-05:00

when I was much younger, I worked at target. One day I was going to the bathroom (yes I believe it was #2) and someone hollered at me "what time does the store close?"

I didn't answer.

"what time does the store close," as she KNOCKS.

no answer

"dont you work here?"

"um, the store closes at 10. I am on break, I would like to have some privacy." I said.

I should have said,

"YOU DUMB BITCH, I AM TRYING TO TAKE A SHIT. IT'S POSTED ON THE OUTSIDE OF THE BUILDING"

(blogging is where I get all my swearing done these days...)

porn bitch

2005-10-11T21:34:00.000-05:00

Okay so maybe I shouldn't post this but I was talking to my husband about this old friend of mine who asked me to be in her wedding...I dont know why, we weren't really that close.

So she was claiming to be a true good christian girl so she married at a very strict college, in their chapel. The rules there were that you weren't allowed to dance or drink. Two things this girl was very good at. So, they have their (LAME) ceremony. Their married.

During the night her husband is watching TV and orders her some boob enhancing creme. She's convinced by this total loser that it will make her boobs bigger. Okay...

Then I get a call they are moving to Texas and that to buy furniture for their new house their building down there, she is going to be a stripper.

I have been wondering how that girl is doing since this has been about seven years.

She's weird.

2005-10-08T22:30:00.000-05:00

I love his fuzzy wuzzy head.

2005-10-08T22:24:00.000-05:00

Regrets and things I wish I had said...

2005-10-08T22:13:00.000-05:00

I am going through a "stage" where I am sick of dwelling on stuff I should have said. I want to get this off my chest, so I can move on, and hopefully, next time one of you cross my path I will have the balls to say it...so this is for you, lady behind me in line at target while I try to hide the box of condoms AND pregnancy test underneat my Cosmo Mag. Yes, that is an odd combination. and YES! YOUR UGLY KIDS ARE WHY WE SHOULD ALL BE USING BIRTH CONTROL.
And whilst I walk into the public library that cold February day very very pregnant pushing a very heavy toddler in a stroller and press that handicap button..."NO LADY. THE HANDICAP DOORS AREN'T ONLY FOR THE DISABLED....NO THEY'RE NOT! THEY ARE ALSO FOR FAT PREGNANT TIRED CHICKS WITH HEMORRHOIDS. MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS YOU CRABBY BITCH. I THINK IT IS YOU WHO NEEDS TO GET LAID."

So today I saw this guy carying his girlfriend's purse. So of course, I had to tell him I liked his purse. It was fun. Maybe that was bitchy, but at least I can say that I did it instead of wishing I had.

Is it better to regret saying it than wishing you had?
I guess I'm going to find out.

Am I normal???

2005-09-29T15:00:00.000-05:00

You Are 70% Normal
(Really Normal)

Otherwise known as the normal amount of normal
You're like most people most of the time
But you've got those quirks that make you endearing
You're unique, yes... but not frighteningly so!

How Normal Are You?

Some more questions I'd like to ask:
(please answer for me because I think I'm normal but maybe I'm not!)

Do you fold your socks?
Do you organize them in your drawer?
Do you organize your underware drawer or just throw it in?
How many junk drawers to you have?
How often do you do laundry?
How often do you change your sheets?

thanks.

there's no assurance that insurance will be covered

2005-09-15T21:13:00.000-05:00

It makes me feel heavy that there are sooo many people in the south now who are displaced from their homes. In the time I've watched and heard so many people's stories, it's made me reflect on what having a home really means and how grateful I am.

I heard a story on the news the other night about people who weren't in flood planes so they had no coverage for the flooding that happened in their homes. THe insurance companies would not pay for the victim's losses because they didn't purchase flood insurance that wasn't offered to them because they didn't live in a flood plane...you know what I mean....link

So that same evening, I'm out talking with neighbors and two of them are talking about the adjuster's visit they got. The hail storm we had recently damaged some roofs on our street, in a neighborhood where the houses are all better than 27 years old. The neighbor said that the adjuster came out and was giving them a brand new roof on their house (as hoped), a brand new roof on their shed (bonus!) AND a few new screens. They have the original roof! We had our roof replaced FIVE years ago. And the other neighbors who also have "hail damage" are hoping they too will get a new roof from the deal. Scammers!

some "thing" vomit.

2005-09-08T23:30:00.000-05:00

things:

meaghan called today; happy baby moon meagan. So happy for you.
tomorrow I am doing scrap-fest. Geek. I am actually looking forward to it though. Its at the Mall of America; where else? (Insert vomit sounds here). I will report back my experiences in the coming future.
I am on higher doses of meds now, and I am unsure if I am overdosing or if I am just a hypocondriac. Serioulsy. This morning i awoke with my head against a board like I had way too much to drink last night, and of course, Aidan decides he has to "pee" and can't do it in his dipe. Good boy. By the way, it's not allergies. Claritin proves it.
wishing the new catty would get out b/c i need to start printing it.
can't wait to get new jeans. My ass is shrinking daily.

lactation station

2005-08-26T22:55:00.000-05:00

Went to the state fair yesterday and the highlight of the trip was the lactation station. I'm not totally opposed to nursing in public, but it is not fun for a multitude of reasons:

It's uncomfortable. There is nowhere to sit comfortably.
Six month olds are very easily distracted by every sound and will turn to look.
Hands are always looking for something to "stroke" whether it be hair, or boob, or bra, or the blanket and inevetably it will be removed by the flailing hands.

I liked the LS because there were about 15 different chairs to choose from, there were bags of freebies on every chair, there was a changing table with wipes and dipes available for use, there was drinking water available, and so on and so on...how divine!

I think they should have lactation stations on every corner, like gas stations. I think more women would nurse if they had them. Don't you think??

my voice

2005-08-22T14:37:00.000-05:00

I notice I have many ranges in my voice. The increase in range is becoming more apparent the longer I am a mother. I am also noticing that I appear as though Aidan can't hear me. Like he has a hearing problem because as soon as I go to interact with him I start screaming. I don't mean to, it's just a thing that I have to work on. So today during the nap time attempt, I am going to never talk above a whisper to him. PErhaps this will soothe him into a sleep state?? I need prayers.

random thought of the day.

2005-08-18T21:53:00.000-05:00

My random thought of the day: I don't have a cold, if I just stopped coughing I wouldn't have such a sore throat.

tubey boobies

2005-08-12T21:47:00.000-05:00

sorry for the TMI but I had a dramatic realization today.

I now understand why our boobs get longer with having children (notice I did not say bigger).

I came to this realization when I was on the second set of half hours trying to achieve sleep in my second who's not quite six months - not, according to Ferber, quite old enough to "sleep train." All I could think about was what I could be doing with my time instead of bouncing, shh-ing, singing, etc...

To make matters worse, if I inhaled too deeply I would, on account of my wretched cold, be put into a coughing attack which would cause convulsive bursts of emotion comparable to the fear I felt when I missed my period in the 12th grade and thought I was pregnant (which turned out to be nothing).

Anyhoo, why my boobs elongate. I was in refusal mode and refused to 'give in' any longer. I refused to sing, bounch or shhh so I told myself if I put him down I am not picking him back up.
So in not breaking my rule, I lifted up my shirt, reaced over to the other side of the crib and stuck my left boobie in his mouth. He was happy with this. I was in complete discomfort as my ass said hello to the ceiling, and knew that if I breathed too hard I'd need to cough and my boob would jolt from his mouth whereby requiring that I start all over again.

I was amazed with how long they were in that position. And the older he gets the lower the crib must get...but that should be no problem as they are getting longer by the minute. MMMOOOOOOOO

my first clever kingdom! party

2005-08-11T21:49:00.000-05:00

I had my first clever kingdom! party yesterday. It was a total success. i was very impressed with myself actually. I still sucked at it (but wasn't to concerned about it since it was my very very first party and all) but it reminded me of the time that I was supposed to get up in front of a bunch of educators and impromtu it and talk about a professor who was my teacher. I completely blanked. I looked SOOO dumb. I left red faced and almost crying. I have had a fear of public speaking ever since. I'm trying to get over it.

internet friends

2005-08-11T21:36:00.000-05:00

I have been corresponding with a girl "on the internet" named Lisa who was in town last week. We met up (despite everyone's concerns) and we had tons of fun! Her son who's 3.5 is the sweetest little boy and so patient with Aidan who's really into that popular word "mine." And her daughter is the cutest thing. Check out some pictures from the event.

Thanks Lisa for the Cold Stone and Sean for the cape (I'll get it back to you after I'm done). Also the kitty monster has been hiding since you left!

Hope we can get together again sometime!

Aidan's quote of the day 8/8

2005-08-08T21:35:00.000-05:00

Aidan: Mama, make dinner.

bob the builder umbrella

2005-08-05T22:12:00.000-05:00

I originally intended to create this site to discuss with myself the joys of being a SAHM...when I find joy in it.

Today Aidan found anger in the fact that he can't take a picture of a toy and acutally play with it, nor can I, his mother just magically produce the product.. He literally had a hissy-fit on the front lawn after we got the mail because it contained a catalog full of toys that he HAD TO HAVE IMMEDIATELY.

I tried as patiently and plainly as I could to explain to him that we don't have that toy...and it costs $38.50 and we could get a compirable one at the dollar store, I refuse to spend my(?) (hard earned) money on yet another ball toy.

Passers by watched with their heads turned away at the toddler who flailed himself all over the lawn, appearing somewhat epileptic. And meanwhile I, the mom, was trying sooo hard to ignore it by reading the lenscrafters ad. But then, I had an idea...

"Bob the builder!" I exclaimed.

"Bob-da-biwda?" said Aidan.

"I think he said something, shhh!"

"Shhh" he answered.

"Let's go see..."

So we enter the house and I look around for something bobbish. I produced the ever popular bob umbrella.

"is it raining?" I ask.

"yea!" he said.

"Let's go." and he follows me upstairs into the bathroom.

"Get in." I said.

So he gets in and I turn on the shower and he stands in complete AWE while the umbrella protects him from getting wet and I plucked a few eyebrows.

Yet another successful attempt at entertaining the entertainer while completing very very important tasks.

weird day

2005-07-26T21:49:00.000-05:00

Today, I met my neighbor. She came over and invited me over for national night out. And while I was meeting her, her husband died while pruning bushes.

As I was preparing the boys for a walk, I was interrupted by two Jehovah's witnesses. They slowed me down. If I had not been talking to them, I would have witnessed her discovery of her husband dead, on the front lawn.

I still am not going to call for the "free video"...

day from hell

2005-07-26T14:58:00.000-05:00

"mamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamamaamama."

that's what Aidan's doing at the door right now. He wont nap. I can usually say he's a good sleeper. yesterday and today? not so good.

"comeee-ner! comeeener!! MAMAMAMAMAMAMAMA "

it's soooo frustrating when your kid wont sleep.

And now I have two that won't.

what am I supposed to do????

oh... but they're so cute.

Aidan's Quote of the day: 7/22/05

2005-07-22T10:20:00.000-05:00

Aidan: "Mom, What DOONing? Picking boogars?"

Me: "No, Aidan. Rocking baby brother to sleep"

Aidan: "Oh."

Nathan

2005-07-21T20:42:00.000-05:00

nathan is now quickly approaching the five month mark.
he is:

sleeping wonderfully through the night
cuter and cuter every time I look at him.
rolling over and over and over.
wanting to sit up
eating some solids
very vocal.

His brother doesn't even know he exists and Nathan is totally fixated on his brother. It's funny to watch.

nursing.

2005-07-21T15:11:00.000-05:00

So in regards to a former post, I put that I got a fortune that said that it's always the right time to do what's right, right??? Then on the back, the word for Milk... I got that fortune the day I was really contemplating quitting nursing. So I didn't stop. I do suppliment, but I only really like to give him one bottle a day and it's not at the same time every day so my body doen'st quite understand how to deal with it, so (I believe anyway) that I'm still producing adequate supply in case the FDA disapproves of formula. Anyway so I got another sign the other day.

I went to K-mart (there are still a few of them around actually) and picked out a huge can of Good-Start. It was the big economy size. I got to the register, and there was a huge dent. I told her I didn't want it.

Yet another reason to stick with boobies for now.

Plus it's soo much cheaper.

My problem is that he sleeps nicely through the night and so bottling would be pretty.

I know, not that interesting.

Who's reading this?

2005-07-21T15:07:00.000-05:00

will you tell me???
It helps to know who to cater to my audience. You know, so I can write about naughty stuff if my parents are reading. HA!
THANKS!

wanna move

2005-07-18T16:17:00.000-05:00

I want to move.

busy busy busy busy busy!

2005-07-12T22:30:00.000-05:00

So in about 15 mintues today I was overwhelmed with things I was doing/wanted to do/needed to do. Here was my thought pattern (trying real hard not to sound too totally nerdy all while not confusing the hell out of the reader)

Loading dishwasher. (wave)
"Hi Nathan!" Nathans winding up (he's in his saucer).
The milk is still out.
AIdan wants to play blocks. Aidan wants fruitsnacks.
"No fruitsnacks".
Gotta water that lawn.
Gotta start laundry...I love that smell of dryersheets. Especially that new kind.
"Aidan, Get off the counter!"
"Aidan, get out of the fridge!"
"let's go play blocks"
Oh, now nathan wants to eat.
"Hold on Aidan, I gotta get your brother"
Aidan wants a breakfast bar. "Not right now, honey."
God, is this kid ever not hungry? Sorta like me, I'm always hungry too...cept I don't have to ask for anything. Now I feel bad.
Nathan's always hungry too.
"Aidan, don't throw blocks."
Gotta start Laundry. Man the windows could be washed. Oh, there's another dish I could have put in the dishwasher. Nathan's eyes are so cute!
"Aidan, go get that block. Mommy said no throwing."
"What should we have for lunch?" "Fruitsnacks for lunch!? No...how about...peas! Mmm...peas!" "okay, how about....sandwiches!" "Sandwiches? Okay!" "No, not right now, Nathan's having lunch right now...let's wait until after he's done...then we'll have sandwiches and peas."
Oh, I forgot to put that letter in the mailbox. Oh, I better get the bathroom cleaned up before Sarah comes over tonight. Ooh, the floor is gross...

and on and on and on...

See? This is what being a SAHM is all about.
Isn't it romantic?

Milk

2005-07-05T13:47:00.000-05:00

I got an interesting fortune the other day from a fortune cookie.
It said: "The time is always right to do what is right." and on the back it was the Chinese word for Milk (which is Nui-nai).

Very interesting....

magnatism

2005-06-30T20:57:00.000-05:00

It's wierd and i don't know how to describe it to you but when I meet someone, I instantly know if I can connect to the person or not. My closest friendships have started that way, including my relationship with my husband. I find myself being drawn to a person...I never really realized how strong this is until recently.

My best friend in the whole world Kathy is one of these people. When we "discovered" eachother we were both instantly giddy. How strange it felt and how embarassed we were of ourselves; and I tried to hide it from her and keep as "cool" as possible. Until we both shared our secrets with eachother how excited we were to have found a new friend.

I also felt this way about my midwife, and find myself wanting to make more babies just so I can have that monthly appointment with her. We have a connection. I miss her. We do e-mail here and there (usually I e-mail her!), but it just seems weird and wrong that we should hang out outside of that. We were e-mailing and she said that if I was ever bored, I should give her a ring...I was instantly giddy by this prospect but I don't see it ever happening. It just seems impossible for some reason...like maybe she'd ask for a co-pay or something.

I also find a strange connection with the women behind me who have triplets...they're a lesbian couple and struck it rich on fertilization day. One of them has a garden just over the other side of the fence from mine and we seem to be striking up such interesting converstaions with one another. I just think they would be interesting friends...but I am not sure I fit into their lives either. (funny side note; she was whining about her cukes not coming up, so I gave her mine LOL)

Anyway, I just wanted to write about this, because for years now I've been feeling this way about people and lucky to have found Kathy for sure. People just are so interesting! I just can't get it out of my head.

Red Hat Society

2005-06-23T14:26:00.000-05:00

I think the red-hat society has ruined red hats forever for the rest of us. What if we like red hats but we don't belong to the club? Not that I actually WANT a red hat, but if I did, I'd be screwed and have to get a different color.

I was at a store today and looking at fabric (why? oh, cuz when I go home i have to listen to whiney kids. when I'm at the store, they're strapped in and somewhat entertained)and noticed there was red-hat fabric. WTF!? would you make with that?? A quilt? UGLY! Some curtains?? EWE! A bag? Not my style...oh well...

They also have red-hat society scrapbooking supplies too. Poor old ladies have nothing better to do I suppose...

senior moment

2005-06-21T21:48:00.000-05:00

Okay so I was driving today in my MINIVAN!!!(see this story is ALREADY good) and I noticed this HUGE cellphone someone was talking on. I thught it was wierd because it was silver and old cellphones were always black. I took a double-take and the phone wasn't big; the person who was using it was small. And they were driving. This person looks about 9 and they're driving!?

No...I'm just old and people who are 16 now look so young.

Follow-up to the interesting McDonalds story below...

2005-06-18T22:21:00.000-05:00

So remember my story about going to McDonalds with Aidan the other day??? How we had to go but he wanted to walk there but I was too lazy and then when we got there, Ryan pushed our three month old off the table onto the concrete floor and when we got home we watched tv and Aidan asked me to kiss his penis???

So the follow up is this: he wasn't asking for McDonalds, he was asking for SANDALS! He wanted to go for a walk in his sandals. The whole evening could have been totally different had I listed to him. How terrible I feel, but isn't it interesting the chain of events???

Actually...

2005-06-17T21:51:00.000-05:00

according to this test at this link, I am an ENFP..which is consistent with my discovery in college, but with another test I took It said I am and ESFP...I don't know.

My Bloginality is ENFP!!!

what's your bloginality?

2005-06-17T21:47:00.000-05:00

My Bloginality is ESFP!!!

tonight...

2005-06-15T23:36:00.000-05:00

we had an interesting night tonight...

Aidan was BEGGING for McDonalds, so as any pussy mom (who doesn't want to make dinner) would do we loaded up and headed for the local McDOnalds. Aidan was pissed when we got into the car. I asked him what his problem was, as we were on our way to McDOnalds...

"walk." he said. The health-nut McDonald's craver wanted to walk there.

"It's too far." (because 1 mile is just wayyyyy to far to walk!).

When we got there, we set Nate on the table and I went to get catchup. While I was gone, Ryan sat down and proceeded to start helping Aidan get his food ready. Nathan was on the edge of the table in his carseat but it looked to him like there was more room. Suddenly, I hear CRASH and WAAAAAAA!!!! I run over and there's Ryan picking up Nate off the floor. Nathan (thank GOD) was strapped in and the handle was up because the carseat flipped over. I don't even want to think about it...Nathan was fine though. I am so glad he was strapped in! We had just moments earlier put him in the seat too, and I (without even thinking) put the straps on him and THEN put the handle up.

When we got home we were watching "dancing with the stars" and Aidan came over to me and grabbed his weiner and looked at me and said, "OW!" and I said,"your penis hurts?" and he said, "kiss." I told him to ask his dad.

fingers and ice cream.

2005-06-15T23:25:00.000-05:00

http://www.mangydog.com/games/drphil.php

I was looking for some sort of witty subject to the following story I am about to tell, and thought maybe Dr Phil might have something to say about fingers and ice cream....

Once upon a time, I was at a ice cream shop (Baskin Robbins, which is now the local Aldi) and I was waiting to place my order for some tin roof sundae. I look up and see this beautiful ice cream cone up on the counter next to the register. I thought it was a display for the different size cones you could order. But it looked so REAL! "Wow," I thought as I reached up to touch it. It was real. It was the person's ahead of me who was paying. My finger went right into that cone. They didn't see me and I just tried really hard not to laugh as I licked the Ice Cream from my finger.

"I'll have what she's having" I told the sales person....

to do list

2005-06-14T21:36:00.000-05:00

begin composing a list of the things I need to do - that's what I'm doing!
buy a dress for the weekend - what? My nicest yoga pants and t won't do?
shave legs - your husband will most certainly appreciate it.
weed garden - the neighbors won't scoff squite so much.
buy more dirt - your plants will thank you for it.
clean floors - the ants will hate you for it.
clean bedroom - they are not storage closets
organize toys - your bare feet will thank you for it.
laundry - don't live out of laundry baskets anymore.
scrapbook about how much scrapbooking stuff I have and so little scrapbook pages done.
teach aidan more funny stuff- his jokes are getting old.
start teaching Nate sign language.
potty train aidan
clean the bathrooms.
wash windows outside and in
read a novel
polish the silver...oh I don't have any so that will be an easy one.
bring aidan's pennys to the bank and start up accounts for the boys
go to the library
go to the post office
go to the YMCA three mored times this week
take a break.

bugars.

2005-06-14T15:08:00.000-05:00

I will today quote my two year olds mutterings...

"mommy's bugars, daddy's bugars, nathan's bugars, Aidan's bugars, claire's bugars, emma's bugars, green bugars, red bugars, purple bugars..."

michael jackson - zzz

2005-06-14T15:04:00.000-05:00

I could care less about michael jackson. I thought I'd share that cuz I thought you might care how little I care about michael jackson. He is a wierdo.

gardening.

2005-06-13T13:42:00.000-05:00

my father in law is a master gardener and knows so much about gardening. His favorite thing to grow are huge-ass pumpkins. His son (*a shout out to my husband*) Ryan is a film-maker who is making a documentary about him and his pumpkins. It's very very exciting.

I decided to plant a vegetable garden this year...(it is also an exciting topic) and can be time-consuming and rewarding. BUT this weekend the neighbor who is an avid perennial flower grower brought over about 30 different plants for me to plant. Now I am no longer only a vegetable grower but I am a flower grower too along with a boy grower...I am so well rounded.

Let's just hope I can keep up with the weeding!! I am slightly afraid I will fail and I will fail my FIL, and my neighbor. Oh why do I care?

not a prouder moment...

2005-06-10T14:35:00.000-05:00

I was preoccupied the other morning and hadn't even gotten dressed yet (gasp!) when I realized it was 11:30 and Aidan would be hungry. This is an EMERGENCY situation. Packed the kids up in the car and headed to McDonalds. Aidan had no shoes on and I was wearing my PJ.s I am sure McDonalds will forgive me. I was embarrassed of myself that's for sure and when I am embarrassed I tend to be stupid and tell the world about it...

Like the time when I wore one brown shoe and one black shoe to work. They were similar styles...so I told everyone and it became a huge joke throughout the office. I loved the attention.

boys club

2005-06-07T16:09:00.000-05:00

who are the people in your neighborhood?

2005-06-05T21:29:00.000-05:00

I have a mixed bag in my neighborhood. To my left I have a mexican extended family. Yesterday one of the ladies knocked on my door and said, "we lost chewey." No chewey is not a dog, this is her grandchild. He is 2. I freaked out and ran out the door to try to help. THere were plenty of others looking too. They live on a pretty busy road, so it was pretty scary to think he could be out there on the road. Well, by the time I got out there, he had been found. Five houses down on the busy street. It goes to show...2 year olds DO have minds of their own...especially (I'm afraid) if they're igored a little too much.

Across from me is a family with a rather young mother and her daughter who's about 7. The dad is an uneducated factory worker who seems a little nervous all the time. The wife, she's beautiful, but VERY shy. I don't know much about them, and they dont' seem like they want to share. When I come home from the grocery store it takes me a few trips to get all the food in the house. I have NEVER seen them bring more than one bag in their house. These people don't mow their lawn but once a month. They've mowed twice this year. We don't mow enough and we have probably 8 times...to give you some perspective. This couple work opposite shifts I think to stay away from each other. Once, the husband was alone in the house (wasn't sure if DD was there) and I was outside shoveling my driveway after a heavy snow. He was standing in his second floor window watching me with Alice in Chains music cranked, and his window was open (strange for the winter, doncha think?) and was screaming along with the music. I was all alone that night...needless to say I am afraid of them. I think there's drugs involved perhaps.

But to my right are a nice family of empty nesters who pay tooo much attention to their lawn. It's their baby. I feel so inadequate next to them, so I try daily to look across the street to feel a little better about myself.

I do like my neigbors generally. I have a guy I cut through his yard to get to the most beautiful park that is totally secluded and clean and generally safe... down the street is my best friend who I talk to or see every day... I just wish that 7 year old woudl come outside once in a while to hang out with us. She seems so alone. I feel bad for her.

keys please.

2005-06-03T22:18:00.000-05:00

I lost my keys. I have NO clue where they are. My key holder has my life in it...there's my driver's liscence, my credit cards (GASP!), and my YMCA membership...which sucks cuz we planned to bring the boys to the pool tonight and spent 1/2 hour looking for them before giving up. I know they're here...I got home didn't I?

On a good note, I did manage to find that missing glove I was looking for in December and a quarter in the cushions of my couch. I also found some pants that might fit me again. All things that i don't need when it's 80 degrees outside... I would have rather found my keys!

clean house?

2005-06-03T09:02:00.000-05:00

I want a clean house. My house is disgustingly dirty. Please send in reinforcements. My children will suffer while I scrub sinks, and toilets. I cannot live this way.

Caffeine Free for six months.

2005-05-31T20:57:00.000-05:00

Tomorrow (June 1st) starts my no caffeine for six months self-punitive lifestyle. I suspect that my little tiny baby has a hard time sleeping because I can't control myself. I have been a terribly selfish mama to you Nathan! You need your sleep more than I need a coka-cola classic with the shockingly refreshing bubbles...oh the beautiful caramel color it, the frost on the outside of the can, the bubbles tickling my nose as I take the first drink...mmmmmm....

I don't think I can do it.

You give love...bad names!

2005-05-30T21:55:00.000-05:00

I have a friend who told me about this family who named their twins Orangejello (pronounced or-Anj-ullo) and the other Lemonjello (pronounced LemONjullo.) My my my my my my my.

homemade wipes

2005-05-28T14:19:00.000-05:00

Love my homemade wipes...learned about them from a great newsgroup (wink!)

Ingredients:

wipe warmer
water
baby cloths (hint: cut up baby towels - they're worthless for anything else)
lavender oil
tea-tree oil (AKA Melaluca oil)

Fill wipe warmer with cloths. You can really get a lot of them in there. It might be good to also cut the wash cloths in half, as you don't really need them that big... Fill with water and a few shakes of Lavender and Tea Tree oil and you're done. I don't really like the smell of the tea tree oil so I usually do more lavender oil but it's all up to you. The clothes are more absorbant than wipes and you can reuse them! I have a little bucket on the floor to put the wipes in and when I do laundry I always have some to wash but it totally doesn't take lots of effort. Also it fills the room with the warm scent of essential oils!

I bought 8 oz of peppermint oil and LOVE the smell of it. I am trying to find uses for it...anyone??

multi-tasking

2005-05-28T11:07:00.000-05:00

hungry baby + sudden urge to use the bathroom...don't tell nate i did this but i nursed while pooping. i was ashamed...he didn't mind. he was so happy he himself pooped too. it seemed like a great idea until i was finished and had no hands with which to wipe. ill spare you more details but it all worked out.

we learn to do lots while nursing...like blogging!
my midwife said she nursed her baby while bagging groceries at cub. her other two kids were there too. Cub is a big chain and is always packed. that's amazing. im still learning the art of public nursing. im just too shy about it. but we gotta do what we gotta do!

ryan took the boys to the Y this morning and i got to listen to the words of some of my favorite songs while cleaning. cleaning alone has become fun.

Happy Memorial Day

2005-05-27T14:53:00.000-05:00

Happy Memorial Day from the Foss Clan. We have few exciting plans for the weekend. Which is exactly what I was hoping for!!!

where'd I go?

2005-05-25T22:10:00.000-05:00

I u-no! Where e go? I un-no! Oh DER heis! Right there! (Aidan)

I was reading over my past blogs and some of the were down right good. What has happened? I am a vegetable now I guess...

IF you were a vegetable what vegetable would you be? ANd what vegetable am I????

killing me softly with his song...killing me softly...with his sooooooooooooooooooooooong (ber-de-de-de-deouuuuu)

2005-05-25T21:42:00.000-05:00

His song being his whining and crying. I am totally in LOVE with it but at the same time really want him to be happy. Nathan has a cold. He hurts. I can tell that he just wants to sleep but lying down hurts him and all the bouncing makes him woozy and he's not hungry and even if he was it wouldn't matter because he hasn't mastered nursing without breathing. He's definitely a man...can't even handle the pain of a cold.
He also has a definite prefrence to his mama, and although I am totally flattered, I am also totally shattered by it because I just want me time...I can't like him if I can't be away from him once in a while!!
I write this with humor...don't come knocking at my door to "rescue" me...no one in this whole world can give him what I give him. Not even our good friend Enfamil (who by the way hasn't sent me my free samples this time yet!) can compare in his eyes. My boy loves his mama, and ain't nothing wrong with that. Except he hates me when I bulb syringe his nose. He would rather me dead than that I think.

2005-05-25T21:41:00.001-05:00

my men

2005-05-25T21:41:00.000-05:00

Shhhh,,,,..

2005-05-25T21:36:00.000-05:00

Nate and Dad enjoying a beautiful evening we recently had outdoors before the dreaded mosquitos emerge from their hiding places.